We are here for you and Neruo Talk. Don't give up. Even if you have to take medicatons for pain, by-polar. That does not mean you failed. You didn't fail. Most of us do take medications, and our lives become a bit better. Allow us unto your heart, to try and help you. While there is still hope, there is life, allow the hope of better days to come. We all go through periods when we are severely crippled by emotional, or physical pain. I can relate to that very much. I come back here, fighting to keep on plugging away ever day! I care about you. There is support here, and ways to relieve some of the pain you are experiencing. You are not alone. I will be praying for you, I don't care what religion, or nationality, or gender you are. You are my family, my human family, we are all connected, more so that we realize. You are my sister, or my brother. I do feel dispair too, and when I come back here to talk, I go to those who provide direction and comfort to me. Allow me to give that same comfort back to you. ginnie