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Originally Posted by stevem53
Jim, I am sorry to hear about the tumoil in your life..Sometimes it is hard to let go..Recently my girlfriend moved out..Mutual agreement..My symptoms have dimished considerably over the past 2 months since she moved..Stress, worry, pressure, anxiety, depression, heartbreak etc, make symptoms much worse..I got sick and tired of being critisized for everything I did, and constantly being questioned about what I was doing, why I was doing it, when am I going to do it, and BTW, dont do it this way, do it that way..When I had bad days, sometimes I was told to "pull myself up by the boot straps"..Yeah right!!..How do you do that when you dont have enough strength to take your socks off?..Or call the Dr everytime time I had a bad day..Pd is what it is, and there are going to be bad days, thats just the way it is, and she doesnt get it, and by running her mouth about something she knows nothing about, just makes a bad day worse
Im am 58, and going into the 10th year since my first symptom, and I made up my mind that Im going to do the best I can, to enjoy life, while I still can
The time some people take away from us cannot be refunded..My philosophy on this ***** is.."Let go, or be dragged"..Easier said than done, but when I got there, I felt like a bird being let out of a cage
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My ex was not a support person either. She was just there physically, she suffered from depression, anxiety and had problems with her weight. She would be in bed for days on end. I did all the shopping, errands, cleaning, etc ALL of it. She did not even cook! You would wonder at why I would be so attached but I still love her. I lost 20 pounds when she left me. She was not intolerant of anything about my PD-if I couldnt do it, well it would wait till I could. She was more resentful of PD. Once I quit working 2 jobs I wasn't able to get around and do things. I know that God is preparing me for the future, I just have to have the patience to get there. I have always had a healthy and positive attitude. So much that sometimes you get tired of hearing others marvel at how well you're dealing with all this. Do you still work Steve? I was a firefighter/paramedic for 15 yrs, worked for 3 after I was diagnosed. Now I'm on SSDI and half a pension.
My personal email is
Jscheuerman@cfl.rr.com, I'd like to keep in touch with ya if you're up to it.
Jim