I envy people who work too fence. My housemate goes each day. She goes to this job I use to do with her. People complain at their jobs, and I would give anything to have my career back. I do know how you feel. I miss my paycheck and the feeling of a job well done, and hard days work is rewarding. I do know my friend, the loss you feel. I use to do all kinds of volunteer work, animal rescue. I now do chores at home, and go to NT to give some help and recieve comfort. I read....lets talk OK? ginnie