James.....I am sorry you are having difficult with forgiving yourself. As I see it; you did nothing wrong. What you did was because you cared about others and there was not any malice whatsoever on your part. You are telling your story. The big recommendation is for each to do his homework with "eyes wide open".

Seeing the post from Nanc would appear, in her case, the SCS worked. She also has a caring doctor and reps. Unfortunately, too many of us do not have that luxury. That is not your fault.