I've often thought back to the year I was diagnosed (2005) and pondered the progression of my MS.

It's definitely progressed.......but I'm still doing most things I want to do, some things I don't want to do , and realizing that, although this was not the life I had envisioned, I'm blessed beyond measure.

Barb, I thought I might have had a brain tumor, too, in the beginning. I had such awful double vision and none of the doctors I went to seemed to know what was going on. To this day I still wonder why MS was not thought of and tested for right away.

The Neuro that diagnosed me was a little surprised at my reaction to the MS diagnosis. Hearing "MS" when you're ready to hear "brain tumor" is definitely a relief.

I, too, think I'm mentally stronger than I was pre-dx. Many unhappy things have happened since 2001.......and MS is not at the top of this list......and it's all made me realize that I'm stronger and more resilient than I ever knew I was.

Sometimes I worry about things.....but just for a minute and then I just tell myself that I'm obviously not in charge here. I just do the best I can with what I have and trust that the rest will work itself out the way it's always been intended to.