Oh, I am here for you! Don't be afraid. You are not alone. I will call you tomorrow. I have your number. Write to me on the PM. I know you are scared. I will help you all I can. I am fused C3-7 and I know what you are going through emotionally. do you have support at home? Is there anyone in your house that you can lean on when you feel panicked? It is going to turn out OK. You didn't offend anyone. Sometimes a thread just gets overlooked, and nobody means to do that. We are here, and I sure do care about you. Noone wants to experience this kind of this without support. You have my support, believe me I do understand. That is when I reached out to NT too. Give me your number again on PM. and I will give you a call. Try to sleep good tonight, and don't hesitate to re-post your concerns on the front forum. You can also PM Leesa, who has had spinal issues too. There really are alot of us on NT. Doc smith is around too, to help you with pain issues. I will be back on line tomorrow. You will be in my prayers tonight. ginnie