i found it does no one any good to do the could have should have would have they are all thing we can't change. take care of what you can and let go of the rest. every one and every thing happens to us for a reason.my granddaughter who is almost 3 has autism.no known reason but i have to say she has an amazing mother and she is starting to make progress.because mom knew something was not what it should be it was discovered early and has a bright future regardless of how much sh can do.
bless you and keep up what you are going it is for a good reason
brenda