You were brave to get the help you needed. Your family is with you. You are so right about discontinuing medications all at once. It is horrible when a person is denied medication that they have been on. The clinical depression does indeed happen when medicine is abruptly stopped. I want you to know that NT is here for you. Please keep going to therapy, and come back here anytime you want to talk. Lots of us have been through some terrible depressions, and we often hang out here and give each other support. Your family needs you, and so do we. You did the very best you could do for yourself, by going for help. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. ginnie