I've been feeling badly about not physically going to church for quite some time... I used to sing in the choir and was very involved in the Sunday School classes, pageants and special celebrations. I even worked with the homeless weekly through my church. That all seems like a different person now when I look back... and it's only a few yrs ago. I sometimes think I might try to actually get ready and go, navigate the parking lot, navigate the large building, etc and then I realize that I'm too exhausted to even try..... so I watch it online. I agree that you don't have to be in a bldg to pray and talk to God, but I do wonder if HE'd rather I try to go anyway....This conversation made me feel much better. I'm realizing i need to be very stingey with my energy....most people just don't understand this, but how could they? It's just so weird.... How can we expect 'civilians' to understand this?
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Originally Posted by Blessings2You
You didn't hijack it, Doydie, you addressed some of the exact SAME issues I'm dealing with. I showered, got dressed, mentally covered all my maneuvers, etc...then at 11:00, I just couldn't pull the trigger. I kept picturing all those people--being nice, but being too much.
Again, nobody doing anything wrong--I know they care about me. My church family was there many times when my "real" family couldn't be. But sometimes even a "good" thing can be, well, too much.
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