I understand your fear of Lexapro, because you had to stop it all it once. The drug does have a good reputation, but you were not treated right with it. It should have been tappered down. I wouldn't fear it, unless there is a chance this same thing could happen, where they wouldn't give the drug again, forcing the same situation. Hope that you can get on a medication and get to stick with it. I take Zoloft. I would have to be weened off that too. This med. however does work for me, and I have been taking it now for two years, since my last spinal fusion. I do get relief from the worst of the depression. Hope you get good results too with what your doctor has you take. ginnie