I sure can relate to you. I lost my career of 30 years, all my savings, and who I was. I am now disabled, trying my best to make the best of it. Grief comes along however, and I sure reach out for help when I have to.
Come back here for support and other people, who also lost much of what they tried to do in life. Our bodies fail sometimes, and they take a long time to heal. I hope you have support of family and friends around you at home.
NT will be here to listen anytime. ginnie