welcome to NeuroTalk sunishower
I do sympathise with what you are going through and also want to remind you that all people are so unique that it is likely hard to equate your situation exactly with someone elses
but
the members of our BiPolar Forum are a very caring and supportive group who will be able to share their experience and knowledge with you
here is the link to our BP forum
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=38