It is really nice to meet you. Reading your short description of the troubles you've been through recently really touched me. I know how desolate life can seem when you are filled with desperation and don't know what to do. I sure hope that you start getting some good results from your meds very soon, and that your inner pain subsides. There are people here who you can talk about this with, and who also understand where you are right now and how it feels to be there. I send you my best thoughts, and wish there were something more substantial I could do to make you feel better right now.