I go to the neuro at 3pm. Got lucky that he's there today, the next time I'd be able to get an appointment with him was May 1st.

and my eye is worse today. Dimmer. This is worse than the first time I had ON back in 2006.

I'm kind of dizzy this morning.

I've been reading a lot, because I'm so bored, but what I've started doing is using the accessibility features of my iMac. I can make the screen black with white text (rather than the usual white screen, with black text). I also turned on the screen reader so that my computer will read to me and I can sit back on my chair and close my eyes.

Figured out that my Kindle Fire is basically useless because it has no accessibility features in it, and there's no apps available to download for that. (thanks a $%^&ing lot Amazon) but I discovered that my iPad has similar accessibility features that my computer has, and a screen reader! (yay!) I think my iPod Touch is similar, but havent checked it yet, so I'm a lot more impressed with Apple products right now.

I have been using my Kindle 3's screen reader tho. I just copy the stuff I've been finding on the internet (I read fan fiction that I've been finding online for a couple of tv shows that I watch) and email it to the Kindle. So, at least I can still read.

Also bought some audiobooks. Found one for a Sherlock Holmes novel that's really good, and it's read by my favorite actor, so I'm enjoying it. (my favorite actor could read me the phone book and I'd be mesmerized by his voice)

My eye still hurts this morning, and it feels like I can barely move the eyeball. Weird thing is, when I close my eyes and put my fingers on the eyelids and move my eyes back and forth, I can feel the eyes moving, so apparently that eye still moves, it's just the pain that makes it feel like it cant. I do have an eyepatch that I used a couple of years ago when my left eye was giving me a diplopia (double vision) problem. I've been wearing my glasses, and I tuck the eyepatch behind the lens on the right side, so the glasses hold it in place. I'm going to get some black construction paper and cut out a patch and tape it to my glasses lens. (did that before when I had the diplopia) The traditional eyepatch makes me more self-conscious, and my eyelashes keep rubbing on the back of the traditional eyepatch and that's making my eyelid hurt.

Been leaving my tv on a lot. Dont actually watch it, but I've been kind of treating the shows on the DVR as audiobooks. Just sort of sit there and listen to them, or close my crap eye and watch with the slightly less crappy eye.

just wish it would start healing and go back to being normal. (wishful thinking?) Worse today than it was yesterday. It's freaking me out. I might end up begging for the steroids. I want to be able to read and crochet. (two favorite things to do) I might see if I can get a Braille primer and see if I can teach myself Literary Braille and refresh myself on the Braille alphabet. (actually already taught myself the Braille alphabet when I was about 8yrs old.) If I cant read, I will go $%^&**^*$# nuts!