I sure do know about depression. Hang in there. I am going through the same kind of stuff, though with a different medical problem. Can't stop crying, and sometimes just loose hope. Lets just both hang out here at NT to get the support we need, to just put one foot in front of the other, one tiny bit at a time. I care about you, and I know there are people on this site who care about me, and maybe that is enough to get us through these times of sorrow and depression. You are not alone. I am here too, struggle sometimes just like you do. I come running back here, that is the truth. By talking to each other, it lifts the others burden just a bit. WE will get well, both of us. We just have to be patient, and keep working toward that goal. Write to me any time. I will be laid up a good month without being able to walk. I'll talk to you anytime you need. We really arn't alone dhope. Friends here will reach out to you. ginnie