I wonder if I can say that I am stressed today, also. And that my father-in-law, the BEST dad of 7 kids, 17 grandkids and 5 greatgrandkids, passed away early this morning. Our world will not be the same and his house seems so empty without him there....it's so not real yet.

I wonder why I wonder about "a body" when it's just a carrier of a soul. Yes, it was as easy to kiss him in life as in death, and, even though I knew it was only a body and he was not there anymore, I didn't want to leave him in the hospital alone....he'd just been razzing me yesterday! How crazy is that?

I wonder how my hubby, brothers, and sister will do with this....we're a very close family and when hubby asked dad at Christmas what he wanted for Christmas all he wanted was for his family to always get along. I guess he saw more than we thought..LOL. Wise man.

I wonder why I always feel so empty when someone I love so much leaves.....perhaps that's the reason I never used to let myself love....but I can't help it anymore; I just have too much love that it overflows whether I want it to or not. I do wish that I could stop crying, though .....just too emotional, I guess.

I wonder that my family on here doesn't care if I cry.....because you don't have to see what a mess I've become...I'm not a 'pretty crier!'