Mike and I have plans to go with another couple on the bikes to Tombstone in 2 wks, to leave on a Saturday morning, and come back Sunday afternoon.

Well my dear mother has started her crap, drinking......since their was alcohol in the house from the holiday. I have been up since 2 am, her screaming, calling me every name in the book,saying all I care about is myself, etc. that she cannot take care of herself for me going away for 24 hours or the dogs.
Which is not true, if she wasn't drinking

Which the dogs have a doggy door to the yard and I could feed them before I left and leave plenty of water, but I would be nervous if she opened the front door and they got out.I could get a bird feeder for my cockatiels and water thing so she wouldn't have to worry about them. I would have everything in the house for her. I would have to take the car keys away, so she wouldn't try to drive to get scotch. I also could put the dogs in a kennel for overnight, or as they call it here, the pet hotel. Yet I would still worry about her, and she won't let anyone in the house to watch over her.

I am really upset. My lower back is in extreme pain from lifting her twice. She said I will pee on the floor or in the bed, I have her in diaper's and the commode by her bed.

I don't know what to do. I guess I have to call Adult Protective Services.
I had to call 911 on Friday, I had gone to my Domestic Violence counsler at noon, then at 1pm to the grocery store, so I was home by 2pm. She was DRUNK, wanting to die, all that stuff. She agreed she needed help, so I arranged St. Joe's where they have a ward for depression and such.

Well, then the ER Dr. call's me and say's everything she said to me, she wasn't saying, and they could not keep her. OMG Then she told me off when she got home saying don't ever do that to me again. It was her choice when she was intoxicated to get help for her alcohol abuse and depression.
She is on Cymbalta, I guess it doesn't work. Xanax too.

I guess I have to cancel my 1 day trip to Tombstone, AZ She is ruining my life, she needs my full attention and now she isn't getting it, yet she really likes Mike.

She was doing really well, until we mentioned going away for a night.

I am so depressed, down, in pain, I have no energy, need a pain pill badly.

She is sleeping now. I suppose I could try and talk to her again, but been there done that.

On Easter all she did all day was put me down, yet saying oh you know I am only joking, people noticed, it wasn't nice.

With all her meds and this drinking she is going to kill herself. Because of the heart med, breathing med, blood pressure med, seizure med, etc.

Sorry I really needed to vent, I am so tired, I give up. I think this time is it.
I can't take it anymore, I have no life. My friends say they don't know how I do it, well they are right, because I don't know how I can do this much longer.

Hugs, Nikko