Oh My Goodness! I simply did not want to get out there today. I tricked myself! I bribed myself and I lied! I allowed myself to have the Ipod 4s and told myself I could hear any songs currently on it. Then I promised myself to download a new one when we got home. I promised myself a walk alone, but when I looked back, DH was shadowing me.

I did my mile. I did it begrudgingly and out of spite, and stomping like a small child. I did not want to go, and I am having massive panic/anxiety attacks which kept telling me things that are not true. LIARS! So, I soldiered thru it.

now im going to wiggle myself back to bed for a bit. yesterday was a bad bad day and I am going to ease myself into tomorrow.