"In any case, I plan on concentrating on just me. I'm practicing Muay Thai and finishing up my classes in preparation for grad school. I've been planning on moving back to Italy for a while now that my family situation has calmed down (I moved back to the U.S. because my grandmother died and my cousin was diagnosed with cancer.. so it was an extreme one-two punch) and I will be back by September. That gives me 5 months or so to completely concentrate on myself."

That is the best idea...concentrate on you because you are worth it...not with any plans of going down that same old path but because you deserve a new beginning and only you can make that happen.

I think you are heroic and very courageous...change is hard!