I think it is nice that you have a friend and a crush on him too.

I think it is a wonderful thing that you have someone, even just to talk to and be with.

Cancer can be treated, I don't know what type he has, but you being there with him, makes a world of difference I bet.

We all need and crave attention. I understand the part about being hurt again too. We always have our guard up, that's okay too.

Enjoy yourself, you deserve it.

Hugs, Nikko
p.s. I lost your email to send you the jokes. So email me.