No matter how bad depression gets, you can beat it back. I am doing this right now, after bad news this weekend. I spent a whole day in a rage, I did not eat. I picked up a book, that is spiritual in nature, locked myself in my room. Used my back lit nook, and read this until I felt better. I slept some too, to get control of myself back. Today I am better, my head is clearer, I am not worried about tomorrow. It will get here anyway. The sun is out. Birds are chirping in my yard. Small small things help the most. Try to turn to God. ginnie