judy,

first let me tell you i was so moved by your post and really feel for you with all you're dealing with.

please don't give up hope tho. can i suggest that you contact your pcp? it sounds like you need to set up an appt. list all your sx's (symptoms) so when you're there you won't forget to tell him/her anything.

even tho the dr can't make your MS go away, it seems like some of your sx's can be controlled. like the bladder & skin issues.

have you ever considered some short term counseling? or tried an antidepressant?

i'm not making these suggestions flippantly. i've been thru many of them at one time or another.

if you can't find a good dr call your local MS society; 1-800-FIGHTMS. they will help you find resources.

you are not alone. i know you can find just a bit of energy to find more answers. let us know how you are.