we know the pain del so here is where u should come to vent. in my house my kids and wife are no longer aloud to ask if I'm alright.(hello the answer is no) and I doubt the answer is something that would make them feel good about. I was the go to guy of the house. its broke i fix it it needs a deep clean I'm your man. organize and big job . thats me. outside inside money, the hard things such as going to work job1 working business job2 and making plays rehearsals. np. now Im missing out on their life and mine. I am only a fraction of the person I was and I live masking how much pain I really feel to make others more comfortable. but still have days where the fight of masking it is too much and I break down. ........This is our story here and others may be better while others are worse but here you have a different kind of family where you can express your pain and despair. advice is given freely here and is so helpful. with out sites like this is how I can live day by day and find a smile for friends and family. good luck to you.