I understand that I ruptured an aneurysm. I understand that I needed brain surgery. I understand that physical, occupational and speech therapies take "time". I get that. It's been just over six months since my surgery. I try my best. I try not to complain about the things that hurt me everyday; or the things that make me feel confused alot of times. I take my meds when I am supposed to. Yes, I get frustrated and angry. Wouldn't anyone else who hasn't gone through this? What hurts me more is that I am made to feel like somehow this is my fault. "I'm tired of hearing about your stroke". I heard that about three weeks ago and it still resounds in my head like it was yesterday. I didn't do anything wrong! I didn't ask for this! I just want to be my old self. I moved to PA for a better life, and left my friends in Jersey. So close, yet so far. I just want to go back. I don't want to be forced to be dependent on one person to take me to my therapies, doctors appointments, or anywhere else. I know that I need to speak to a counselor. I would have to depend on the very same person. I won't do that. I just want my independence back. Someone, PLEASE, tell me...when will it be OK?