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Originally Posted by MsEva_EMS
I understand that I ruptured an aneurysm. I understand that I needed brain surgery. I understand that physical, occupational and speech therapies take "time". I get that. It's been just over six months since my surgery. I try my best. I try not to complain about the things that hurt me everyday; or the things that make me feel confused alot of times. I take my meds when I am supposed to. Yes, I get frustrated and angry. Wouldn't anyone else who hasn't gone through this? What hurts me more is that I am made to feel like somehow this is my fault. "I'm tired of hearing about your stroke". I heard that about three weeks ago and it still resounds in my head like it was yesterday. I didn't do anything wrong! I didn't ask for this! I just want to be my old self. I moved to PA for a better life, and left my friends in Jersey. So close, yet so far. I just want to go back. I don't want to be forced to be dependent on one person to take me to my therapies, doctors appointments, or anywhere else. I know that I need to speak to a counselor. I would have to depend on the very same person. I won't do that. I just want my independence back. Someone, PLEASE, tell me...when will it be OK?
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I feel your frustration. None of us want to be dependent on others; especially when we were so independent. I often wonder if this is a way to teach us "humility". Letting go and accepting is so difficult; but often comes a time when we must try to make the best of what we now have. Not easy.
After a while, this gets a bit old with many of our family members and friends. It hurts; but it is difficult for them to understand unless they have been thru it. That's why sharing with us on NT is so important. We all do understand and try as much as we can to encourage one another because we really do care about each other.
Prayers coming your way.
Gerry