DS and g/f are back together. I DEMANDED that if they do this AGAIN, they MUST ALL go to counseling, including her 3 kids. They lost their daddy too, not just g/f losing a husband and friend. She is asking things of DS that he cant now, nor will he ever be able to do. He is NEVER going to replace dead husband, and the sooner she sees that, the sooner they will be happy. They all seemed calmer after our 3 hour talk yesterday.

Called the MD who said he can offer me IVM, I said NO. He said he could refer me to a surgeon to fix boil. I said I would work on it more from home. Increased my ativan to help with the hug. Offered Klonopin. I said I would consider it if this bump in ativan doenst work. Wants me on baclofen round the clock. Great now I will be sleepy thru my day. Have some errands to get done today. Banking must be done by me. I am going to put DHs name on a separate account, and put money in it. This way I can allow him control without giving up all my secrets. its rainy and stormy here, so thats always fun.

Why is it they can only offer IVSM? Hasnt the MS world caught up to the rest of the diseases? IVM while great, comes at a price! I dont want to be 70 and wheel chair bound from osteoporosis instead of MS.

They keep pushing me to go on another DMD...im starting to think about it.