Yesterday was not a good day - he came out of his therapy session with anger and frustration. And we were so disappointmented in it ourself, as instead of getting 'on track' with what we thought would be an INTENSE treatment program, he was told to come back in a month! A monthly 50 minute visit is not going to work, I know. He later became extremely aggitated at us because of his medicine. Due to his "dark thoughts and talks" we have had control of his medicine and disperse them as needed. We have discussed this and thought he understood our posistion - he agreeded even that he could not conrol his dosages. But, he completely lost it and demanded his "drugs" and when we told him that we could not allow him to have them he actually called the cops on us - they did not allow him to have them either however based on the past history. He needs clinical in-patient, but short of an emergency guardianship (and invloluntary admittance) I know he will not go on his own.

Thanks again to all --- I just pray tonight is not another night of tears and no sleep.