Sophie - i work in IT. I've been at my same job for the last 12 years. hoping i can get back on track at work. it's been a struggle, recently been demoted. i just can't work the 55 hours a week my coworkers put. that doesn't sit well w/ the boss. here i am at almost 1 am working (between following up on this forum)

Ananimity - the blood patches blow. i'm had 4 and might need #5, going to avoid it if at all possible. it's an epidural of your own blood used to stop a leak of spinal fluid caused by the pump trial (or anything invasive to the spinal cord as i understand). w/o them the leaking causes absolutely insane headaches when you're not laying down. i thought migraines were bad

5 days until my implant. i'm a wreck. can't take nsaids leading up to the surgery or tylenol (me and tylenol don't get along very well) and my one prescription ran out and i refuse to refill it. so, i did some of this to myself. 5 long day...

thanks all for your encouragement. it means a lot!