Denial is an apt word, as the critters always need care, if YOU can do it or not.

I've found that while my endurance and overall strength is compromised, all the lessons I'd learned about body position and BALANCE of me working with the horse are keeping me from being in a body cast. I don't think that's what you wanted to hear, but, knowing how your body relates to the horse AND the rest of the world helps you deal with coping with the world and just you. That's why I'm an advocate for physical therapy and doing it all slowly and very correctly. There aren't any quick fixes here as anywhere I'm guessing.

As for drugs...you'd med your horse, wouldn't you to keep him/her/it from undue pain? Why are YOU different? IF you can find the best combo of meds that ease pain and increase function and performance, how is that different? Being able to sleep more than 4 continuous hours a night is a GOOD thing, just so's your meds are tuned to you so you can speak complete sentences you'll be fine. Fortunately my friends let me come 'visit' providing I bring carrots!

Tell us more, and we will help you cope. There are good people here! - j