Lupus I can relate to the pushing yourself to make it to school. I am on disability now and I am relived. I was a Special Ed. Preschool teacher and worked an afternoon shift, half days. I would take a warm shower, lay with the towels to dry off and stay calm. I would work my pain medications around my schedule to be able to cope with the pain. I too felt badly when I could not go into work knowing that it is hard to get a teacher with the background needed to do Special Ed preschool, alot like PE. I hope you can get some relief and remember you are just as important as your kids at school you have to take care of yourself and let go. I am glad you have a good principal that is understanding. Take care.
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Originally Posted by Lupus777
Thanks everyone for all your advice. I really appreciate it. I don' t know anybody with rsd and for the past two years I have kept all my feelings and questions to myself.
My friends and family try to help but they really don't understand. A lot of days the pain is so intense it causes me to vomit or dry heave. I have tried to continue to work as a physical education teacher through this process, but I have missed a lot of days, well over my allotted 10 sick days. My principal is amazing and completely understands when I call out. The problem is our school is small and I am the only pe teacher there so if I miss school the kids don't have pe unless there homeroom teachers follows the plans I leave. I feel quility that the kids miss organized pe classes. Some days I have gone to school and have to leave early because I can't make it. I am currently on short term disability to go through the blocks and make some treatment decisions. I miss the kids but not the panic and stress I felt every morning when I had to decide if I could push myself and make it to school or did I have to call out again. This is the first time I have ever taken time for myself and I know I shouldn't but I feel quility. Any suggestions on how to handle this quilt?
It is amazing that in two days all of you not only read my question but took time to answer me. I don't feel alone anymore. This place is incredible.
Wishing everyone well,
Lupus
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