Thanks for the asking all,
I am doing better. It is not perfect, but better. I am on the medication, something with an L, I think. I had cut the dose in half for a few weeks now up to the 10 mg.

I am more focused, not so weepy, not said all day, functioning again.
I get sad when I find pictures of DeAnne as a small child, or our recent vacation in Orlando.......I visit her grave near daily now that the weather broke. I bought a lawn statue from K-Mart that is a kneeling little girl with cats climbing on her lap. It is still snowing up our way and the real flowers her brother placed there for Easter froze.

I am back to work. They have been wonderful. I am surprised how nice everyone has been and the family that are clients that missed me and sad about my loss. They sent me cards and took time to tell me how they were sympathetic to my loss and can't imagine how it hurts. I hope it is not something I am speaking too soon....

I am glad things went well to come back. It pays well, and the family are long time clients I care about. One woman in a separate program from ours, always takes time to chat and share stories. I saw her for the first time since I was back tonight and she was extremely happy to see me. Held me, looked to see a smile, and hugged me several times. That makes my day when people care about me like that.

So while I wish I could have my daughter back....I am living and in a life with the rest of my family that we have to go on..
Her cats have become very close, even the younger Samson comes out now. The middle one Dahlila, sleeps on my chest in the recliner and the older one, Scarlet, sleeps in my bed.

Hate love relationship with my boy cats...LOL, one minute they steal kisses they next fighting like alley cats screaming and all!
Baby steps, one day at a time, and just knowing that things are different then they ever will be again.
Thanks again for asking about me,
Hugs
Dianne