I hope that you can appeal the decision even after the judge said no. I do not understand our system any more. I was in your situation too, no health insurance and fell apart, needing many surgeries. I was denied 4 times. In that time period I lost all two generations saved for. I rely on my son now to help me. The money from disability does not cover my home taxes, so my home is in the chopping block as well. I do understand about having to rely on others. Please don't give up, and find another attorney. Even after a judge said no, I would still keep trying. Our SS is in trouble, and I think they are turning down legetimate cases because they are on overload with the baby boomers, this is just my opinion. I know of several others, desperate for help as you are, who were turned down as well. I am so sorry you are in that position. I will keep you in my prayers. ginnie