Dej,

I'm sorry you are having a rough time. I know how you feel. I too live away from my family but I don't have a husband. Being single is miserable by itself and add MS to it. Well actually dating. Who wants to date a chick with a cane and is tired before the date even starts. I self isolate because most people don't understand. I don't blame you for not wanting to pay $100 an hour to someone and you don't see a benefit. I don't really have any advice but do what you are comfortable with and what makes you happy. I hope you find something or something finds you to chase the blues away.

MG