I watched my sister die a horrible death at age 37 due to a brain aneurysm. They couldn't get her blood pressure under control because without cigarettes, her pressure went through the roof. So she died young two weeks after getting very ill, all related to smoking. I quit shortly after her funeral.
My sister in law died from lung cancer, literally drown in her own disease before our eyes.

My brother still smokes after seeing and experiencing that. We know that smoking is very bad for us.
My 40 year old niece quit after a diagnosis of throat cancer, she survived the treatment, but she has no tastebuds left because of the radiation treatment.
It was hard for me to quit because I really, really enjoyed it too. But I had to choose between smoking and life. I didn't want to leave my children behind.
If you make a plan and quit we will support you here, we are a good support network here.