today i think i just ate too much. i am not sure. i don't have much appetite. i ate when i was supposed to eat but not much. in between i had tidbits like peanuts and chunks of hard cheese... just for comfort eating. i had moments of feeling full which i dislike. now i am afraid of the scale but it seems to draw me like a magnet every few days... sigh.

since i messed up my knee real good and my ankles pretty good too, i can't even attempt to do extra walking - which would be the best thing, and i have to avoid stairs (they make knee hurt BAD), when i travel to/from/within the city. doing all the stairs on foot is one of my "tricks" for augmenting exercise and building tone. sigh. i do not even know what exercises are safe to do other than non standing. but any weight bearing is probably bad. i do cautious stretching and a little ROM.

The knee has full forward/back range unless strained, twisting and lateral shifts hurt. One ankle does not yet under the best of conditions. i think ankles must be complicated. i tripped forward on this ankle 3 days after the bad fall that hurt it, and hurt it a different way, so i guess i shouldn' tbe surprised. i don't even know if i this ankle and the knee could handle swimming - even if i could afford a gym.

Maybe I should change my name to Zyprexa or have it appended to my name, since i feel like i am 1/3rd constituted by weight that med put on me.

~ waves ~