Nick,

In an older thread, you described how well you were doing. I warned against extremes of either direction, positive or negative. I'm not sure my words were taken so well at the time, but I stand by them. Now that the pendulum has swung to the other side, it might be more clear. I have been through everything you describe, and more. I have been in pain for over 36 years. I do not know if I will ever be better. But I am still here. My faith in God and the Ways of His universe is sometimes the only thing that keeps me going. Some day all this suffering will make sense, for all of us. It is up to you to find whatever keeps you in the game, waiting for that day. You can take a lot more than you think.

Take care
Kenjhee