[Hi ellijay,
I do have extreme compassion for your suffering. Nobody should have to endure that much. I know it is living like you have death pain everyday. I have had two spinal fusions, a number of injections. I will not have anymore, as you are right it is never ending, and with each one there is more and more risk. I am terrified of the very thing you must endure. i wish there was some hope to relieve your suffering to where your quality of life is better. If I cannot get enough pain help, I am not sure exactly what I would do. I am not brave like you are, more of a wimp, but I try hard. You are doing the impossibbel. I pray for you, you will never be forgotten by me. I have a prayer list, and I use it. We are all the human family and we need each other very much. I hope you have peace, and less pain today. ginnie