Blessings, I feel much the same way, have to keep kicking myself to snap out of it....that feeling of "worthless". I was an athlete as a youngster, a ballet dancer (that's an athlete).
I was so good at running on my toes that they had me do it at half-time at a league basketball game. One year later, when I came down with my neuro ailment (MS, porphyria, or both, probably both), I couldn't even rise one time on my toe shoes, which I tried to do when invited to practice together with another girl at college. What a change in the year from 16 to 17. I was not diagnosed until decades later. Perhaps I never told a doctor my experience with the toe shoes, as I had other more pressing symptoms to talk about.

Yes, I will even now have a bad day after a day in which I am physically active, which is VERY frustrating, as I am now able to be more active since my feet are not hurting as much. I also have to avoid the 12-14 UV sun we are having now. So it's hard to go out all covered up, which doesn't even completely work in this level of UV, unprecedented they say.

I don't want to sit in front of the computer all day, but I find I am doing it more. I have given up on the political scene on TV so that is mostly dark. I can't run my radio, which my husband bought before his death 3 l/2 years ago. It would take a more patient person than my son to get me used to the technicalities.

The big thrill (and I'm not kidding) of my day is when I look out through my tinted windows and a wild rabbit is eating grass in my yard. Those little guys (not so little, some) raise my spirits! I think of them as angels sending me love messages, although they probably don't know that's what they are. My husband loved the rabbits too.