I am glad you found this forum too. I have been here for two years, and don't plan on going anywhere. I am sorry to hear that you have such medical trauma, and that your doctor said goodbye. Personally that is terrible to do to a patient, and you deserve better treatment than that. Please seek another pain specialist, or a PCP who has compassion, and can direct you to some better help. It does exist. Also consider a pain specialist in conjunction witha Physiatrist. This kind of doctor treats the whole person, not just your pain. They have a mind, body, kind of connection that they adhere to. This will help with your mental state in dealing with your health issues. There are also alot of medicatons to help you. Do find ones that work for you, and that can ease your pain and discomfort. Nobody wants to live a life where the quality just isn't there. I hear your pain, and I do know there is help for it. I too am a pain patient, and have received good help for a number of years now. I have PN, but in specific locations, like in my foot after some surgeries that did nothing but give me the PN. I have joint problems. You are not alone, we will be here for you, and I will try to stay in touch with you as you go forward. Try to get the help, and when you do, you will feel like there is a little more help for a life that has meaning. I am here to talk to. I also run back here for my own issues, and get the compassion I need to go forward in my own life. None of it is easy, but this site has helped. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. ginnie