I just want you to know that another human being hears you. I am sorry you are suffering. I wish your family was more supportive for you. Please just keep coming back, let all of us be a family to help you through the darkest time. I don't have your exact issues, but I know pain like so many of us do here. I am not what I was either. This place here is santuary for me, and I run back here all the time for support. I care about you. Depression is hard to beat off when our bodies arn't right. I am here too, if you ever feel like talking. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I actually do have a little (long) list going....ginnie