Hi Nick,
I totally understand! And I'm so sorry!
At one year, I was not doing well at all compared to my functioning levels before the accident. Before the accident I was considered "higher functioning" and I wasn't even at an "average" level of functioning according to my neurologist's opinion a year after the accident I was in.
I'm doing better now. I'm not yet close to all better though. It's been almost two years since the accident I was in.
All I can say is try to hang in there.