I've been quiet because I just don't know what to say right now; still dealing with the death of my father-in-law and everything that's happened following that. We've learned many unexpected things about him....amazing things that people hadn't shared with us...all really great things that we wish we'd known when he was alive. I'm certain, though, that his being a "hero" in other people's view would've embarrassed him horribly and he would've denied it all....but, still, we're proud of him. In the meantime, I spent two weeks in intensive care with my BFF....her husband has brain cancer and was having a terrible time. The nurses brought the two of us a bed...into his room...the first time since high school since we've shared a bed....I stayed awake the first night so that she could finally get some sleep. I realized that I was sharing a very sacred time there...his lungs were full of blood clots and the docs were certain that, if one moved, it would be the end for him....well, he finally did go home...but it's still bad. He's one strong, stubborn man, I'll give him that. And my BFF is stressed to the max; going to see her this weekend, I hope. In the meantime, I'm just wondering how this whole thing works and what my part is in it? Hubby and I got away last week and went to Colorado....just to do some thinking....the son (who was estranged, but ISN'T anymore..YAY!) is getting married next May....and we were on a fact finding mission for him....so exciting!!! So maybe there's a rainbow in this picture, after all!