Hi. Thanks for the responses.

As to my Diabetes my A1C has usually been in the low 7's. My doctor is Ok with that number. He said the guidelines recently changed and I usually fall within the recommended range.

I do see a hemotologist due to a blot clot in my leg and surgery was done to remove the clot. I nearly lost my leg going into surgery. It was an elevated homocysteine level. So I am on 3 mg of Folic Acid and 50 mg of B-6. I am also on B-12 and was on 100 mg. But lately have trouble finding 100 mg tablets everything is now in MCG so I would have to take a trillion, not literally, of mcg tablets to equal the 100 mg tablets. not sure why I can't find the MG tablets any longer. Need to talk to doctor about this.

I was on the fetanyl patch about 12 years ago. I couldn't tolerate it. I remember I was having a reaction to it. Can't remember what after all these years but doctor took me off the patchs.

I agree at this point in time I may have permanent nerve damage. And that bothers me, but I may have no choice in accepting that.

I take hydrocodone. I was taken off oxycodone and baclofen since I was having breathing problems. My hydrocodone allows 6 maximum tablets per day. Have not taken a complete dosage yet, but I have noticed occassionally the feeling of lightheadedness from a lower dose or sometimes a real quick dizzy spell. Also extremely tired at times. I try to watch how much I take of the medication since it is a narcotic. How long can some really go taking a medication like this without become physically or mentally addicted to it. that is a concern of mine.

I am frustrated. Part of me says accept what is and that there are no answers, but the other part of me says I need a doctor that will look at things differently and have a different approach and really and I mean really listen to me.

Not sure what else to say at this point. I never know from day to day as to what I feel up to do and what I can't do. I am living day by day at this point. People ask me when they see me How am I doing...my response is I'm still here. I at times just don't feel like talking about it since most wont understand the pain. I feel like screaming but why bother no one will hear the screams.

I do go to the gym for pool thereapy when I am up to it. Feels good when I am in the water at least. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Allan