hello sandlyme sorry to hear you are having such a hard time i am right now not as far down as you sound. but i have been that far down sounds like the meds should be working better, have you tries cymbalta? or prozac? the ambien may be making you so tired at night it carries in to the day? just a thought. meds can help and some hurt if you feel as bad as i think you do call you r doc change meds or the doseages. your doc should understand. like i said some meds can make you feel worse. this one i was on for add made me parinoid bad and anxiouse (sp). i know it's hard but try not to isolate yourself from your family they can be your strongest support system. when they understand and know how you are feeling. dose weather play a role in how you feel. are you ok for now. don't want to hurt yourself right. that won't help promise makes things worse.-shelly