I had the same "mixed feelings" when I was diagnosed. I remember that day as clearly as if it was yesterday.

It took me a year to get a diagnosis (after umpteen doctors) , a year to figure out how to best treat it, and another year to apply my comprehensive plan to treat it and get it to settle down a bit.

It's quite a journey, but there is hope and things can get better. Use this forum to educate yourself, for support, and if you ever feel the need to vent!