I too wish to welcome you to these boards.
There are alot of other forums as well if you take a look at the listing on the first page...see if any of these might be an additonal support for you as well as here.
It is a shame that you have been suffering so long.
On paper you sure look like you are being overmedicated.
I am not a doctor at all jsut seems like it....Have you ever tried lithium? or lamictal?
I agreee with what has been said about trying to find a specialist, pdoc who specializes in bipolar.
I am bp1 tend to be toward the manic side, I presumme you are bp2 lean toward the depressive side...Is this right?
there is a good book out there that talks about how different dxs over lap and that it really is difficult to treat. like is your ADD really OCD?
It is called shadow syndromes.
there is alot of info at the sticky threads at the top of the page with good web sites and hot line numbers.
If you are feeling suicidal then there is a forum for that as well.
S.O.S. (survivors of suicide)....jsut a click away.
You will find people here from all around the world.
I wish you wellness.
(((HUGS))))
bizi