There are times I sit back and think I will never have answers on a lot of things as to what is going on or why it is occurring.

But then I go thru stages of this need to know, need to find an answer. Thinking it's a matter of making the right connection with the right doctor to put all the pieces of the puzzle together.

Yes at times it consumes me and takes it toll on my physically and emotionally. I guess it's in my nature to try and find the answer. Unfortunately we don't always get the answers we want.