Hello again ~ When you spoke of your therapist, you mentioned "they." Do you have more than one? I certainly hope not, as that wouldn't be very therapeutic. It would be hard to connect to a particular therapist and to really trust him/her if you didn't see the same one each time. Do you see the same therapist each session?
I'm sorry you're having to have surgery.
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I certainly hope it's not a serious surgery and that you won't be laid up for a long time! Please let me know when your surgery is scheduled, ok? I don't want to worry that you've disappeared for a time -- otherwise, I'll have people out looking for you! LOL
I think it's great that your friend has set you up with someone! I'm sure he found a lady that he thought would be appropriate for you!
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Just be yourself -- and don't worry about it. You're a well spoken young man, and you don't want to try to be someone you aren't. That's too much work and it just doesn't work anyway.
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She'll like you just the way you are!
I know that I am the cause of many of my lapses into awful depressions too. I tend to relapse occasionally, even on my medications, although not as severely as when I'm NOT on medication. I don't know WHY I do that to myself -- I'm sure it has to do with my childhood AND adulthood. Perhaps it's lack of affection as a child (I had none) and maybe guilt as an adult (horrible 1st marriage). There are probably hundreds of reasons.
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I'd drive myself crazy trying to figure it out. LOL I guess the reason isn't really important. The fact is, I relapse and I have to get myself OUT of it. And I usually do, either by distracting myself, taking a nap, talking to someone, or just waiting it out and trying to think about something else.
Anyway -- I hope your date goes well, but more importantly I hope your SURGERY goes well! Again, please let me know when it's scheduled, ok? Take care & God bless. Hugs, Lee