I havent checked in for awhile. I have finally been approved for pt and psych and a therapist. It seems everyday I have an appt. Which are all good things. It'll be a year in July for me. I have a right frontal head injury where the sharp edge of a 50 lb door came down on me.

The good news is that I havent had a migrane in two weeks. This makes me so happy. I do get a slight headache if I over do it or after pt for my neck. I do have the neck pain after but to me its progress.

My problem is impulsivitiy. I know we've all had impulsivity prior to our head injurys but I mean big leaps. I've almost left my husband (who I love so so much) four times. I brought home a dog even though I knew it would cause him to move out. ( I gave the dog back ) I have started smoking again and yes I know all too well how bad that is for me.

I was in the hospital for a week with these issues and I was put on a cocktail of meds and released to follow up with a psychiatrist after to wean through what I need, what I dont. Wean off, regress, restart, new med etc etc. It's quite the process. I am hoping that with the right combination it'll help. I also have alot of anxiety and I am forcing myself to go out and make friends again. To do so I have to take Clonazepam. I admit it works. I go.

My question is. What happens to our heads during the injury that makes me this way? Is it my head cant stabalize my thoughts? Did the actual impact damage that part of me? Has anyone else experienced this?

I am hopeful the meds will work. I would love to get back to work providing I can find these answers. I know it may take awhile but I am feeling better. I am settling down and not hurting myself myself so much since taking the meds. My mind was always ten steps ahead and forgot the nine steps before. That can lead to some dangerous falls.

I am sending good vibes to everyone. I hope you have a pain free, relaxing, happy day.