This is a tough subject for me. I've had more suicide attempts than I can count. I've wound up in intensive care and had to be brought back to life. I felt for a long time because I was so sick for so long that my family would be better off without me. I even asked my husband to divorce me and find someone he could lead a more normal life with. But then I got to feeling better and started seeing a therapist who told me exactly these things. Which is why when I had my next deep suicidal thoughts I agreed to go through ECT because my meds had failed. It was hard but my family thought I did much better after wards. I haven't had suicidal thoughts for some time although I still feel like I'm being a burden on my family at times. But then my husband and children tell me they love me and that they wouldn't change a thing about me. I'd be lost without them.